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我老公出亏...... 

从去年到今年2月，你一直偷偷摸摸的讲电话，不然就是半夜出门，说要应酬顾客。刚开始我相信，到后来，你几乎每一天都出门，连倒数都出去，我还哭着要你留下来陪我，可是你很心狠的把我一个人留在家里。

过后，我忍不住了，查了记得电话。原来你所谓的顾客是越南小三，我顿时吓到，不知如何反应。凌晨1點，我也不知要找谁诉苦，还好我还有一个要好的学长这个时候还没睡，诉苦后，找你问话，你才诚实的一五一十告诉我，天啊。。。闹了一番后，我决定原谅了你，你还答应说会和她断绝关系，可是，你没做到，你还是时不时和她聊天，和她吃饭。当我怀疑你时，你既然骂回我，说我不信任你。天啊，现在是谁错先。

昨晚，你说你的朋友找你喝茶，疑神疑鬼的我，查了你的google map history 才发现，你这几天都去找小三。我一肚子气，打了电话，说要和你离婚，然后发在Facebook 也tag 了她，结果你骂我为什么tag了她。天啊！说什么她不舒服，带她去看医生。我胃痛，跟你说了很多次，结果你也没什么行动。

我真的心很痛，你为什么可以忍心，那么的狠对待我。

我真心爱你，很期待和你手牵手一起走向属于我们的未来。可是，为了这个小三，你这样对待我。。。我很痛很痛。。。我不知如何是好。

 

Thx

Tuesday night, housemate came to my room n said wanna have a chat v me.
n he asked about the incident happen last week.
asked was i OK? was i fine? if anything just tell…. don keep them…

wanted to keep silent n keep the sadness and hurt inside..but he said actually they knew i cried that day because of their words. He apologized for his action that day and I was glad he apologized.

finally i told the truth n also apologized to him because of my sometimes-laziness. should prepare the dinner together.He also told me not to keep everything but need to tell them if their action or words hurt me…

Then he make jokes and both of us laugh then he went back his room.

That night was very happy although i din show it on my face. Really thx him for being concern for me and apologized to me… But still i will be more caution and not to repeat the same thing happen to me or my housemates. BTW thx again… ^^

2am in the midnight.. siao eh

This picture let me had a deep thinking in this silent midnight.
Time fly fast and i'm going to reach 22 years old and haven done anything special for my life once.
Always having my life easy-come-easy-go like everything had been planned by God. Never been through the most challenge or gan-jiong incident before.... (sigh.... haiz...)
From a baby who does not know to walk to an adult who need to face lots of challenge and social now.
Through this journey, i met lots of kind of people, things and challenges. Sad, frustrated, happy, excited, angry, pekcek, walao.... lots la.... had been through these feelings and still continue facing it and wont easily give up no matter how hard the challenges and how the pekcek the peoples are. (CHE.....!)
Sometimes felt very disappoint when my parents do not trust me yet grateful for they always give me the biggest support (and sponsor... hiek hiek><) to me without let me know.
By the way, enjoy my university life in Sarawak and no longer will go for work like those crazy workaholic in office.
Try to achieve a good result so in future can have a much better lifestyle for my family.
Both of parents are getting older everytime i went back for my sem break.
Sometimes will drop some tears when knowing one day my parents will left my sisters and I forever...
Will try appreciate and do everything they asked me to do. Don want to let them angry or felt sad for my mistake or fail.
I know I'm a damn freaking stubborn girl an sometimes will easily get angry when my parents said something to me which I do not like or agree it. But, am trying to change those bad habit. ><
At last, thanks to our mother of the heaven to let me born in this beautiful world, have a wonderful yet crazy family, met lots of psycho-ness, hiao-ness, caring, loving, betahan-ness, friends for 21 years.^^
Let's face those fucking journey an challenges together^^ yeay~!!!

28.12.2012

These days, I felt very lonely because all my housemates went back for Christmas and Phoebe went back for her cousin’s wedding.

Said that 26 or 27.12.2012 will come back but till today I din saw my housemate… Bullshit!

Just forget about it…

My first Christmas eve celebrated in one of the church in Kuching and honestly it was too bored but interesting.

Celebrated Christmas eve with siao tar bo, Sen Chen and others people such as Ah Pang, Teck Yong, Monisa, Mandy and others.

Last week, i went K with my ah ba Poh Seng of course, Shiro my little macho brother, Kar Ann and Etienne!!!! When he told me he is going, I was like” Thank God!!! Finally I jio-ed Etienne Lee that siao Cibong!!!”

We sang a lots and played like siao lang~

Unfortunately, we missed the way back to Unimas.

We turn and turn and turn finally under Etienne’s driving, we managed to went back. Pheww~

During these days, I wanna thanks to Shiro for keep jio-ing me out and eat…

Thx, Sai Lou~ Muakzz^^

At least not last, my final exams… wanna do revision but keep watching my Running Man and my Kpop MV…. SUCKS!!!

BTW, I still keep control myself and focus on my revision…

Hence, All the best and Fighting!!!!

Sarang haeyo Dong Bang Shin Ki and BAP>< muakzz~

10.12.2012

my friend told me that she jealous of me because can have a bunch of male friends and very close to them...
actually it doesn't true...
if they busy, they din bother me yet when i was depressed for their help( i know they busy but at least they reply my msg say no...) .
although i used to this situation for a long time , i still felt very sad...
sometimes, the things which my friends had promise me, they will forget or pretend they forget and ignore me...
Promised will go to somewhere together, at the end they forget about it and left me behind.
when they alone, only then they will remember me.
Promised to find a house and stay together but they seem like wanna change the promise and left me behind.
Haiz... This is my life n the only things i can say is"
IS BETTER TO SATY ALONE THAN WITH OTHERS WHO WILL BETRAY YOU SOMEDAY".

7.12.2012

Just finish publish my TMX 2012 website to local host and it was wonderful~ *touching

We have doing our TMX 2012 website for 4days non-stop.

Me, Janet and Jentin doing our website until midnight together with Victor and his group, and other FEB group.

It seen that only me and Janet are from FSKPM and majority is from FEB.

And we both faculty help each other and finally we done It.!!! YES!!!

Now I really know what is 水火不容！！！ And it was just happen in front me!!

My ICS (introduction of Cognitive Science) group leader Burhan and Helina were arguing about the assignment and I was like’’ Wow, and is better I keep my mouth shut @x@”

Actually is Helina’s fault.

Burhan had told us that we need to submit our part to her last week and Helina just submit this week and next week we need to present it.

Not only ICS, CP (cognitive Psychology) assignment also same. Last minute only submit her part. And the worst thing is all her answers are wrong and Helen need to terminate it and used hers.

BTW, theses day, I was in a good mood and its all because of my beloved brother, senior, buddy Cibong Etienne.

Because of Etienne, I know his buddy in UNIMAS and we become closer and even played around even though Etienne was not there.

That day, De Xiang was FB-ing and posted that he had opened his own Skype and I added him.

We chatted and I started my naughty plan.

I asked him to treat me Chatime and he said ok.

Yea~ again I “A” people money to treat me… HEHEXD (don learn this)

Yesterday I return Zeoilen’s hard disc for the Running Man.

Don know why, in the msg, I automatic type” Zeoilen Koko” and he say he like the way I call him Zeoilen Koko… lol~

And that day, I met the guy who asks my phone number. He looked so rush and we din talk much.

Til now, I still confuses the reason he ask my phone number and din send me msg or called me? Hmmm…. Sound fishy~

Although Uni’s life is suffer and full of stupid assignment, I enjoyed myself here with a bunch of new friends like recently I have extra step parent who are Poh Seng and Janet~

Last week I falt sick and my step parents force me to clinic and took my medicine.

Since that, both of them become my step parent….

BTW, final exam is coming and its means my Sem 1 will end soon~ woohoo!!!

Holidays… I means Final exam… here I come!!! Wahahaha….

7.11.2012

Like usual, fb-ing, youtube-ing and upload-ing in Cais…

Suddenly have a feeling wants update my blog.

Since the first day I arrived in Sarawak, I realize I had stay in Bunga Raya College in UNIMAS for 2 months.

Now left 2 months and I ready to pack my things and go back to my hometown, Klang !!! Hurray!!!

BTW just finish my sem break and I enjoyed my sem break by camp and shopping…

Went the Buddhist camp alone but I gained a lots of new friends there…

Although the ways they pray are different and the resort at Sematan beach was damn suck, I enjoyed and played with new friends there…

First time stay in a beach resort and I really like the peaceful quiet atmosphere there…

The second day I went back from camp, I went water front and shopped a lots for grocery with Jing Ni, Esther and Elaine…

I also went seafood with them by Han Li's promote.

Stayed at the hotel there and the next day I went back to college by the time Jing Ni and the others went to Damai beach which I did have enough money to go…

After reached my room, I started clean up my room and after 2 hours finally finished clean up and WOW!!! SO CLEAN!!! Hahaha….

Saturday and Sunday oli started do revision for my coming exam…

HOPEFULLY I can get a good result for my mid-term exam and these coming assignment…

ALL THE BEST FOR ME and please voted TVXQ and BAP in MAMA2012!!! ><

Ciao~

Modern Dance (17.10.2012)

Today Spencer teaches us a new dance.

It’s quite hard but I LOVE IT!!

He teaches us step by step and I follow step by step.

Although it sweats my shirt, I really enjoyed it.

Don know why, recently she used me, ordered me to do this to do that.

After used me, she will throw me like rubbish… no...is recycle bin…

When even she want to do something for her own purpose, she will pick me up from the recycle bin and used.

Before I don’t know and always betrayed by her like a fool…

Now, I really started aware with her.

That day, she promised will do this, suddenly she changed her mind and asked me to waited her in a place like an idiot. Luckly I knew that she won’t came so I went back to my apartment with anger… The way she lie to me, she teasing at me, she laugh at me… HATE IT!!

Human being…. Human being is the most dangerous mammal in this world.

We can’t read someone’s thinking and mind…never…

Honestly, I know I’m always used someone to my own purpose but at least I won’t let someone wait me like an idiot!!! AT LEAST!!!! 

How can I do? Life still needs to go on… just focus on my study and dance lots to release all my anger!!! Arghhhh!!!

BTW… the funniest part in my Uni life is can play naughty on Sen Cen and Etienne… hahaha…. Both of them are my target… ALWAYS!!!! Hahahah…

TRIP TO KAMPUNG ANNIS RAIS LONG HOUSE (TITAS ASSIGMENT)

6.10.2012 is the day.

The day we went to Kampung Annis Rais for our TITAS assignment.

Thought the car will came at 8 a.m, but after we waited for 45 minute, the car still not there.

We all felt so frustrated then our senior told us he still have friend who can rent car for us.

Luckily his friend rented his car to us and we immediately went to Kampung Annis Rais after took our breakfast at kopitiam outside.

So far, we were on the right way to Kampung Annis Rais.

But when was in a kampung place, we went lost and kept ask villagers who live there.

After a while, we were in the right way but the longest way…

It took us about an hour to reach there yet there’s have a lots of bengkok road.

When drove on the damn bengkok road, it felt like we were taking roller coaster.

Very excited>< *wow-ing

After reserve, u-turn, dizzy-ing and wow-ing, FINALLY we reached there and there were a lots og group already finished their visit and wanna go back to school…

When we visited the place, we saw many traditional things and houses there.

Suddenly, we saw WI-FI MODERN, ASTRO and EVEN BSN SERVICE also arrived there…

WOW!!! FANTASTIC BABY!!

We also tried the rice wine there and it taste good so I bought one apple favour wine and shared a bottle of pure rice wine with my course mate, Janet.

(if my mom I bought wine sure she kill me><)

After finished interview the villagers there and took a lots of pictures, we wanna took a visit at Hot Spring.

But because need paying the fees so we went to The Spring to have our dinner.

Again, we needed to used that bengkok road.

ACCIDENT WAS HAPPEN!!! John almost crashed on other car but he managed to stop the car.

When John drive down, saw a car and the car almost cant stop because the type already exhausted.

When John stop the car beside the road, the type smoke-ing and we all quite shocked.

Luckily there’s nothing serious happen and senior let us go first and he followed behind in case there was something wrong happen.

After a few minute, we finally out that stupid road and drove to The Spring to have lunch yet it was already 4pm~!! *hungry

Before that we went to toilet and when I came out from the toilet, I SAW DANIEL LEE!!! WOW!!! HE IS PROMOTING FOR THE 30 HOURS FAMINE AND HE WAS INTERVIEWED. Wanna took picture with him but scare rejected by ejen so we went away…OMG!!! DANIEL LEE 李吉汉！！！haiz….

Around 6.30 p.m we went to 101 and after took our dinner then we went back to college.

Although we almost in accident, we safe and everything were on our schedule…

Really wanna thanks to John coz drove the car for hours yet he din complain anything… n hopefully there was another day which we can went out again together…

God Bless~

Pa Sang style (Klang style) - Parody of Gangnam Style